i!!!! am so!!!! tired of hearing, seeing “everything happens for a reason” this is a “everything is fucking bullshit” part of my life i dead ass cannot take a single breath of air without some BULLSHIT happening i try so hard for everything i do and the outcome? BULLSHIT dude i spend so much of my time and spent so many years trying to fix my life and my situations and it always somehow comes back around i cannot believe i’m real i cannot believe this always happens i can’t fucking deal i am so tired i am so sad and i’m so tired of pretending to be neutral and just okay! with everything no i’m always on fucking edge that something is gonna happen next i want to relax and not want think about offing myself and i want to wake up and not feel so burdened by living and it’s all too much sometimes. most of the time. all the time